Margaretha Montagu - Dr Margaretha Montagu

28 July 20268 August 2026

What Horses Can Teach Us About Listening with Self-Awareness

What Horses Teach Us About Active Listening

I used to think I was a good listener. Then I got a small herd of Falabellas who couldn’t care less about my medical degree, my life coaching certificates, or the very reasonable things I was trying to explain to them, and I found out I had a great deal to learn. Tess, my Friesian mare, in particular, has a way of pinning her ears at me that says “What a lot of hogwash!” Humbling.

In our hyper-connected, fast-paced modern world, communication has largely been reduced to words on a screen, quick voice notes, or hurried conversations over coffee. We are constantly talking, texting, and broadcasting, yet we rarely take the time to truly listen. We often listen merely to reply, rather than to understand.

Enter the horse. A 1,200-pound prey animal whose very survival has depended, for millennia, on its ability to read the subtlest shifts in its environment. Working with horses offers an in-depth masterclass in a skill we desperately need to reclaim: aware and active listening.

The Illusion of Verbal Communication

Most of us rely heavily on verbal language. We assume that if someone isn’t speaking, they aren’t communicating. However, psychologists and communication experts have long noted that a significant portion of human communication is non-verbal—encompassing tone of voice, facial expressions, posture, and micro-movements.

When you step into a round pen or a pasture with a horse, your verbal language becomes almost entirely irrelevant. You cannot explain your intentions to a horse using words. You cannot negotiate, rationalise, or debate. Instead, you are forced to engage in a completely different paradigm of communication. You must learn to “listen” with your eyes, your body, your perception and your intuition.

Reading the Equine Language

Horses are constantly broadcasting their internal state, but their language is a silent symphony of physical cues. A horse’s ears are perhaps its most expressive feature. Ears pinned flat against the neck often scream anger or extreme discomfort. Ears flicking back and forth can indicate divided attention or uncertainty. A relaxed, slightly drooped ear may suggest contentment and trust.

But it doesn’t stop at the ears. A horse communicates through the tension in its jaw, the swish of its tail, the shifting of its weight, and the softness—or pointedness—of its gaze. When a horse licks and chews, it processes information and releases tension. When it rests a hind leg, it is signalling relaxation.

To work safely and effectively with a horse, you must become an active observer. You cannot be distracted by your phone or lost in your own thoughts. You must be entirely present, actively “listening” to the continuous stream of non-verbal data the horse is providing. If you ignore a horse’s subtle signs of anxiety—a tightened lip, a slightly elevated head—you might soon find yourself dealing with a full-blown panic response. The horse teaches you that listening is not a passive state; it is an active, continuous engagement with the present moment.

Linking this Way of Listening to Human Relationships

The profound beauty of learning to listen to a horse is how seamlessly this skill translates back into our human relationships. When we train ourselves to notice the subtle physical cues of an animal, we inadvertently sharpen our awareness of the people around us.

Think about your last conversation with a colleague, a partner, or a child. Were you truly listening, or were you just waiting for your turn to speak? If you apply the “equine listening/absorbing” approach, the entire dynamic shifts. You begin to notice the unspoken narrative.

You might notice that while your colleague is saying “I’m fine with this project,” their crossed arms, tight jaw, and lack of eye contact are screaming the exact opposite. You might realise that your child’s sudden quietness and slumped shoulders are communicating a distress that they don’t yet have the vocabulary to articulate.

By becoming attuned to these non-verbal cues, we become better, more empathetic listeners. We stop taking words at face value and start listening to the whole person. We learn to read the room, to sense the underlying emotional currents, and to respond to what is actually being felt, rather than just what is being said.

The Gift of Being Heard

There is a profound psychological comfort in feeling truly heard and understood. When a horse realises that you are “listening” to its subtle cues—that you step back when it shows anxiety, or that you soften your posture when it seeks connection—it responds with immense trust. The horse relaxes, knowing it is safe with someone who understands its language.

We are no different. When we practice deep, active listening with the people in our lives, we create a safe space for vulnerability and authentic connection. When people feel that you are not just hearing their words, but truly seeing their emotions and understanding their unspoken needs, the quality of the relationship transforms. Trust deepens. Conflicts resolve more easily. Empathy flows.

A Practice for Everyday Life

You don’t need to own a horse to practice this, though it does help a lot if you can practice with a horse first. You can start today. In your next conversation, challenge yourself to listen like a horseman/woman. Silence your internal monologue. Put away your phone. Look at the person in front of you. Notice their posture, the tension in their face, the movement of their hands, and the cadence of their breathing.

Listen not just to reply, but to understand what the other person is trying to get across. In doing so, you honour the profound lesson that horses have been trying to teach us all along: that the most important things we say to one another are rarely spoken aloud.

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“I am an experienced medical doctor – MBChB, MRCGP, NLP master pract cert, Transformational Life Coach (dip.) Life Story Coach (cert.) Stress Counselling (cert.) Med Hypnotherapy (dip.) and EAGALA (cert.) I may have an impressive number of letters after my name, and more than three decades of professional experience, but what qualifies me to excel at what I do is my intuitive understanding of my clients’ difficulties and my extensive personal experience of managing major life changes using strategies I developed over many years.” Dr M Montagu

28 July 202610 September 2026

The Best Retreat Hosts Aren’t the Busiest Ones

One of the most unexpected lessons I learned as a retreat guest was that the best hosts aren’t the ones who do the most. They’re the ones who make you feel most at home.

When I first started attending retreats, I had a rather romantic notion of what a retreat host ought to be.

I imagined someone who was endlessly energetic, always organising the next activity, checking that everyone was happy, answering questions before they were asked and somehow managing to be present in three places at once. The sort of person who could produce herbal tea, profound wisdom and a freshly baked croissant with equal ease.

In other words, a superhero.

As it turns out, the retreat hosts I remember most weren’t like that at all.

They weren’t constantly talking. They didn’t feel the need to fill every silence with another insight or every spare moment with another carefully planned activity. They weren’t trying to impress anyone.

They simply had a way of making people feel wonderfully welcome.

It’s surprisingly difficult to explain what that feels like.

It’s in the way they greet you at the door, as though they’ve genuinely been looking forward to your arrival rather than simply expecting yet another guest. It’s the unhurried conversation over a cup of tea while you recover from your journey. It’s the reassuring sense that there is nowhere you need to be and nothing you need to achieve for the next few days.

They weren’t performing hospitality.

They were simply being hospitable.

There’s a world of difference.

We’ve all experienced the opposite, haven’t we? The frantic host who is so busy making everything perfect that they never quite have time to enjoy the people they’ve invited. Meals become military operations. Every tiny hiccup feels like a crisis. You almost feel guilty asking where the teaspoons live because they already seem to have enough on their plate.

I suspect many of us have been that person ourselves at least once.

I certainly have.

There was a time when I thought being a good host meant constantly being available. If guests were reading quietly, perhaps I should ask whether they needed anything. If there was a lull in conversation, perhaps I should suggest another activity. If someone wandered off on their own, perhaps I ought to check they were all right.

My intentions were kind.

My timing wasn’t always perfect.

One of the greatest gifts retreating has given me is the realisation that people don’t usually come away in search of more stimulation.

Most of them are desperate to escape it.

Many arrive after months—or years—of being continuously surrounded by people wanting something from them. Their diaries have become impossible games of Tetris. Their phones seem incapable of remaining silent for more than thirty seconds. They’ve become so accustomed to reacting that they’ve almost forgotten what it feels like simply to respond.

The last thing they need is a host who accidentally adds to the busyness. What they need is someone who quietly gives them permission to slow down.

I noticed that the retreat hosts I admired most all had one quality in common.

They never seemed to be in a hurry.

That doesn’t mean they weren’t working hard. Anyone who has ever hosted a retreat knows there are meals to prepare, shopping to do, questions to answer and approximately one thousand tiny details that nobody ever notices unless they go wrong.

The work is real.

But the atmosphere doesn’t have to feel like work.

The best hosts somehow managed to protect their guests from seeing the frantic paddling beneath the surface. Like swans gliding serenely across a lake, they created an impression of ease that invited everyone else to relax too.

I found that deeply reassuring.

Because calm, it turns out, is wonderfully contagious.

When someone welcomes you without rushing, speaks without hurrying to the next point and sits down with you instead of constantly springing up to do one more thing, your own nervous system quietly takes note.

Perhaps I don’t have to rush either.

Perhaps nothing terrible will happen if I finish this cup of tea before moving on to the next thing.

Perhaps I can finally exhale.

That may not sound particularly profound, but I think it is.

We live in a culture that celebrates busyness almost as a virtue. We admire people who multitask, optimise and squeeze one more thing into an already overflowing day. Somewhere along the way we’ve started confusing being busy with being valuable.

Retreats offer a gentle alternative.

They remind us that presence is far more generous than performance.

As I’ve hosted more retreats, I’ve found myself becoming less interested in trying to create a perfect experience and much more interested in creating a restful one.

Of course, I want everything to run smoothly. I care about comfortable rooms, delicious food and thoughtful details. But I’ve learned that guests rarely remember whether dinner was served exactly on time or whether every cushion was perfectly plumped.

They remember how they felt.

They remember laughing over breakfast.

They remember sitting in the garden with a glass of wine as the evening light softened over the vineyards.

They remember feeling safe enough to let go.

And, perhaps most importantly, they remember a host who didn’t make the retreat about themselves.

That, I think, is the true art of hospitality.

Not being the most interesting person in the room.

Not dazzling people with endless knowledge or keeping them constantly entertained.

Simply creating a space where other people can hear themselves think again.

Looking back, I realise that the retreat hosts who influenced me most probably had no idea they were doing so. They weren’t teaching through carefully crafted lectures or inspirational speeches. They were teaching by example. They showed me that kindness doesn’t have to be loud, that confidence doesn’t need to dominate a room, and that making people feel at ease is a far greater gift than making them feel impressed.

It’s a lesson I’ve carried home from every retreat I’ve attended, and one I try to bring to every retreat I host.

After all, nobody comes to the French countryside hoping to watch someone else rush around.

They come in the hope that, somewhere between the vineyards, the birdsong and a leisurely cup of coffee, they might remember what an unhurried life feels like.

If that sounds rather appealing, I’d be delighted to welcome you to one of my retreats.

I can’t promise perfection. I can promise a warm welcome, plenty of time to breathe and absolutely no medals for keeping busy.

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27 July 20268 August 2026

The Most Life-Changing Decisions Are Slow Decisions

Whenever I’m facing an important decision, there’s one thing I’ve learned to avoid.

Rushing into anything.

Urgency has a wonderfully convincing voice. It whispers that you need to decide today. That if you don’t act immediately, you’ll miss your chance. Everyone else seems to know what they’re doing, so why are you still hesitating?

It sounds remarkably persuasive.

It is also often remarkably, utterly and completely wrong.

I’ve noticed that people going through a major life change frequently become impatient with themselves. The marriage has ended, so they feel they should know what comes next. They’ve retired, so they think they ought to have discovered a new purpose by Tuesday. Redundancy arrives on Friday, and by Monday morning they’re scrolling through job adverts, convinced they must replace not only their income but also their identity.

As though uncertainty were a problem to be solved as quickly as possible.

I understand the temptation. Uncertainty is uncomfortable. It sits beside us at three o’clock in the morning, asking awkward questions we’d much rather postpone until daylight. Given the choice, most of us would gladly exchange uncertainty for almost anything else.

But discomfort isn’t always a sign that something has gone wrong.

Sometimes it’s simply the feeling of a life rearranging itself.

One of the reasons I love walking is that it teaches us something modern life keeps encouraging us to forget.

You can only take one step at a time.

The path unfolds gradually. You notice the scent of pine warming in the sunshine, the rhythmic chorus of cicadas in the long grass, the crunch of gravel beneath your boots. Every so often, you reach the top of a hill and realise the view was hidden until you climbed high enough to see it.

Life has a curious habit of unfolding the same way.

Gradually, you become aware of a vague feeling that something no longer fits. Then comes a conversation that lingers in your mind for days. A book that seems to have been written just for you. A walk during which the same thought returns again and again until it quietly refuses to be ignored.

Looking back, it can all seem perfectly obvious.

Accepting it is another matter entirely.

We like to imagine that wise decisions are made by gathering enough information. There is certainly some truth in that. But I’ve also noticed that there comes a point when more information simply creates more noise.

It’s rather like trying to see your reflection by constantly stirring the water.

At some stage, you have to stop.

You have to let the water become still.

Only then does the picture emerge.

That doesn’t mean doing nothing.

Waiting wisely is very different from avoiding difficult decisions. One is an active process of paying attention. The other is simply procrastination wearing a respectable disguise.

The challenge is learning the difference.

I’ve come to think that some of the most important work we do during big changes is invisible. While we imagine we’re “doing nothing”, we’re actually grieving, questioning, noticing, letting go and slowly becoming the person who will eventually be capable of making the decision.

Perhaps that’s why answers rarely arrive when we chase them.

They tend to appear when we create enough space for them to catch up with us.

Why, then, do we expect ourselves to make life’s biggest decisions at breakneck speed?

If you’re standing at a crossroads today, wondering which direction to take, perhaps the wisest thing you can do is resist the pressure to figure everything out right away.

Gather information.

Take long walks.

Sleep on it.

Pray, if that’s part of your life.

Because the best decisions are rarely the ones we make in a panic.

More often, they’re the ones that emerge slowly, like when the morning mist lifts from a valley to reveal a path that was there all along.

You simply couldn’t see it yet.

26 July 202627 July 2026

A Retreat Should Leave You Wanting More, Not Needing Another Holiday

One of the biggest surprises I had as a retreat guest was discovering that even something designed to restore you can leave you feeling utterly exhausted.

It sounds like a contradiction, doesn’t it?

After all, a retreat is supposed to be restful. It’s where we go to escape the busyness of everyday life, to breathe a little more deeply, to think more clearly and perhaps even remember what it feels like to wake up without immediately reaching for our phones.

So why have I occasionally come home from a retreat feeling as though I needed another week off?

The answer, I think, is surprisingly simple.

Not everything that fills us up also allows us to recharge.

I’ve attended retreats that were beautifully organised, packed with fascinating workshops, inspiring speakers, meaningful conversations and activities from breakfast until bedtime. Every hour had been planned with the very best of intentions. There was always something to do, somewhere to be or someone to talk to.

And yet, by the final day, I found myself secretly longing for… silence.

Not another discussion.

Not another exercise.

Not another invitation to “share with the group.”

Just an hour alone with a book, a comfortable chair and nobody expecting me to be involved.

It made me realise something rather important.

A full schedule isn’t the same as a full heart.

Many of us arrive at a retreat with lives that are already overflowing. Our diaries resemble complicated jigsaw puzzles. We spend our days solving problems, making decisions, answering questions and trying to keep up with a world that seems determined to move faster every year.

Our minds are tired long before our bodies are.

If a retreat simply replaces one timetable with another, have we really escaped anything?

Of course, activities have their place. I’ve learned something valuable on every retreat I’ve attended, whether it was during a workshop, a guided walk or an unexpectedly profound conversation over dinner.

But I’ve also learned that our minds need stretching space.

Just as muscles grow stronger during rest rather than during exercise itself, insights often appear in the pauses between activities rather than during them.

It’s the quiet walk after lunch.

The cup of tea enjoyed without conversation.

The moment you look up from your book because a bird has landed on the fence.

The ten minutes spent watching clouds drift across a summer sky.

Nothing appears to be happening.

Yet something usually is.

I remember one retreat where there was an unexpected gap in the programme because of heavy rain. At first, everyone seemed slightly unsettled. We had become so accustomed to moving from one activity to the next that an empty afternoon felt almost… alarming.

People wandered off in different directions.

Some curled up with novels.

Others sat by the window watching the weather.

A few simply slept.

By dinner that evening, the atmosphere had changed completely.

Conversations were gentler.

People laughed more easily.

Nobody seemed to be trying quite so hard.

The rain had quietly given us permission to rest.

I’ve never forgotten that.

Since then, I’ve become rather suspicious of anything described as “action-packed” when it’s paired with the word retreat.

Adventure? Certainly.

Learning? Absolutely.

But action-packed?

That sounds suspiciously like ordinary life wearing linen trousers.

One of the greatest gifts a retreat can offer is freedom from the constant feeling that every moment must be productive.

We are remarkably good at turning even leisure into another achievement. We count our steps, optimise our sleep, track our meditation streaks and wonder whether we’re reading enough books to qualify as properly relaxed.

It’s exhausting.

A retreat should loosen that grip.

It should remind us that watching the evening light change over a vineyard isn’t wasting time.

Neither is lingering over breakfast.

Or reading three chapters because the story is too good to put down.

Or sitting in the garden doing absolutely nothing except listening to the wind in the trees.

Those moments are not interruptions to the retreat.

They are the retreat.

Hosting my own retreats has made me think carefully about the difference between offering people opportunities and giving them obligations.

There’s an important distinction.

An invitation feels light.

An expectation feels heavy.

I want guests to feel free to join a conversation, but equally free to wander off on their own. To enjoy a leisurely walk without worrying whether they’re missing something. To take an afternoon nap without apologising for it. To choose solitude without feeling antisocial.

After all, many of us spend our lives responding to everyone else’s expectations.

A retreat should be one of the few places where that burden becomes noticeably lighter.

Ironically, I’ve found that when people are given genuine freedom, they often become more curious rather than less. They engage more deeply because they’re choosing to, not because they’re following the programme.

Rest, it seems, has a way of making us more present.

Looking back, the retreats I remember most fondly aren’t necessarily the ones where I did the most. They’re the ones where I noticed the most. The scent of lavender warming in the afternoon sun. The satisfying crunch of gravel beneath my walking boots. The taste of coffee without simultaneously replying to emails. The pleasure of an unhurried conversation that wandered wherever it pleased.

Those memories don’t feel dramatic.

They feel nourishing.

And perhaps that’s the point.

If the idea of returning home refreshed rather than needing another holiday to recover from your holiday appeals to you, I’d love to welcome you to one of my Camino de Santiago walking retreats.

Just don’t be surprised if the most productive thing you do all week is absolutely nothing at all.

I put the essence of who I am, and everything I have experienced that makes me who I am, with great enthusiasm, into my retreats, courses and books. – Dr Margaretha Montagu (MBChB, MRCGP, NLP master pract (cert,) Transformational Life Coach (dip,) Life Story Coach (cert) Counselling (cert,) Med Hypnotherapy (dip) and EAGALA (cert)

25 July 20268 August 2026

The Journey Home After Your Retreat Is An Important Part of the Retreat

Lessons I Learned as a Retreat Guest

When I first started going on retreats, I assumed the retreat ended when everyone hugged goodbye, exchanged email addresses they fully intended to use, and wheeled their suitcases towards the cars.

The official programme was over. The final brunch had been eaten. The kettle had boiled one last time. Surely that was the end of the story.

It turns out it wasn’t.

In fact, some of the most valuable parts of nearly every retreat I’ve attended happened after I’d left.

Not while I was meditating. Not during a workshop. Not even on one of those wonderfully slow walks where your thoughts seem to wander at exactly the same leisurely pace as your feet.

They arrived on the journey home.

There’s something rather magical about that just-after time. You’re no longer immersed in the retreat, but you haven’t quite re-entered ordinary life either. Whether you’re looking out of a train window, driving through unfamiliar countryside or waiting for a delayed flight with a slightly overpriced cup of coffee, your mind keeps wandering.

Perhaps it’s because there are no more activities to attend. No conversations to join. Nothing left to do except travel.

Your thinking catches up.

I remember one particular journey home when I found myself staring out of the train window as fields drifted past. Somewhere between two stations, a problem I’d been wrestling with for months quietly untangled itself. There was no dramatic lightbulb moment. No heavenly choir. Just a calm, almost matter-of-fact certainty.

“Oh… that’s what I need to do.”

It was so obvious that I couldn’t understand why I’d never realised it before.

Of course, I hadn’t realised it before because I’d been too busy.

Our lives are astonishingly noisy. Even when we aren’t surrounded by people, we’re surrounded by notifications, decisions, deadlines, shopping lists, emails, news headlines and the persistent feeling that we really ought to be doing something useful.

A retreat interrupts that noise.

Not by filling your head with new ideas, but by giving your existing thoughts enough space to settle into their proper places.

Like snow in a shaken snow globe, clarity takes a little while to appear.

Which may explain why it so often arrives after the retreat has officially finished.

I’ve noticed something else as well.

Whenever I’ve returned home from a truly restorative retreat, I haven’t felt an overwhelming urge to change my life overnight.

I haven’t come back determined to sell all my possessions, move to a cottage in the woods or begin each day with an hour of yoga before sunrise. (Although I admit the cottage occasionally sounds tempting.)

Instead, the changes have been surprisingly ordinary.

I started eating breakfast without scrolling through my phone.

I went for walks without feeling obliged to count my steps.

I found myself saying “not today” to things that would previously have received an automatic “yes”.

I spent more evenings reading and fewer wondering where the evening had gone.

None of these decisions looked particularly impressive from the outside.

Collectively, they quietly changed the rhythm of my life.

I think we sometimes expect transformation to arrive with champagne and fireworks.

More often, it slips in through the back door carrying a cup of tea.

That, perhaps, is why I no longer think of a retreat as a self-contained event.

A retreat is more like dropping a pebble into a still pond. Dr Margaretha Montagu

The retreat itself is only the moment the pebble touches the water.

The real story is told by the ripples.

Some reach the shore within hours. Others take days or weeks. Occasionally, months later, you’ll catch yourself responding differently to a situation and realise that the seed was planted during those few days away.

You didn’t notice it germinating.

It simply did.

Attending retreats has also changed the way I think about hosting them.

I used to focus almost entirely on what happened while people were here. The walks, the conversations, the meals, the quiet moments, the little touches of hospitality.

Those things still matter enormously, of course.

But now I also think about the journey home.

I wonder what my guests will be thinking as they drive away from the farmhouse. Whether they’ll stop for lunch somewhere and find themselves smiling for no particular reason. Whether the silence in the car feels comfortable rather than empty. Whether they’ll notice, perhaps for the first time in months, that they aren’t in quite such a hurry.

I hope they don’t leave with pages of frantic notes or a daunting list of things they “must” change. Most people already have enough lists. I’d much rather they leave with one or two quiet realisations that feel manageable enough to carry home.

Perhaps they’ll decide to protect one evening a week from meetings.

Perhaps they’ll finally take that walk they’ve been promising themselves.

Perhaps they’ll begin keeping a journal again.

Or perhaps nothing visible will happen for a while.

That’s perfectly all right too.

Seeds are wonderfully unimpressed by our deadlines. They germinate when conditions are right, not when we tap our watch.

Looking back, I realise that some of the retreats which seemed almost uneventful at the time turned out to be the ones that shaped me most extensively. Their gifts revealed themselves gradually, often in the middle of an entirely ordinary Tuesday. I’d catch myself reacting with more patience, worrying a little less or making a decision that felt unexpectedly true to who I was becoming. The retreat hadn’t given me a new life in five days. It had simply nudged me gently in a different direction, and over time those small changes added up to a very different destination.

Perhaps that’s the greatest lesson I’ve learned from being a retreat guest. We tend to judge experiences by how they make us feel in the moment, yet their real value often lies in what they quietly continue to do afterwards. A good retreat doesn’t ask you to become a different person before you leave. It simply gives you enough rest, enough perspective and enough trust in yourself that you begin to make different choices once you’re home. And those choices, repeated over weeks and months, are where the real transformation lives.

If you’re longing for a retreat that doesn’t end when you zip up your suitcase, I’d love to welcome you to one of mine.

After all, the journey home IS still part of the retreat. I simply hope that when you arrive back at your own front door, you bring home a little less hurry, a little more clarity and perhaps the comforting suspicion that life doesn’t always have to be lived at full speed.

Author Bio: Dr Margaretha Montagu – described as a “game changer”, “gifted healer”, “guiding light” and “life-enriching author” – is an experienced medical doctor, a certified NLP practitioner, a medical hypnotherapist, an equine-assisted psychotherapist (EAGALAcertified) and a transformational retreat leader who guides her clients through life transitions – virtually, or with the assistance of her Friesian and Falabella horses, at their home in the southwest of France.

24 July 20268 August 2026

Reinvention Isn’t Starting Over. Or Is It?

If you’ve ever wandered through an old European town, you’ll know that some of the most beautiful buildings have lived several lives.

A medieval merchant’s house becomes a bookshop. A monastery becomes a hotel. An old barn, with weathered beams and stone walls polished by centuries of hands, becomes a family home. You can still see traces of what each building once was: an ancient doorway, worn stone steps, the outline of a fireplace that no longer exists.

These buildings have not been torn down and rebuilt.

They have simply been repurposed.

I’ve often thought people are much the same.

When life falls apart, we talk about “starting over”. Friends encourage us to make a fresh start, reinvent ourselves or turn over a new leaf, as though the years we’ve already lived have somehow become irrelevant.

I’m not sure that’s either possible or desirable.

After all, you can’t unlearn what you’ve learned. You can’t undo the mistakes that made you wiser or erase the heartbreaks that made you more compassionate. Every joyful moment and every painful one has become part of who you are.

Why would you want to dig it all out or sand it all away?

I think one of the reasons people fear change so much is that they imagine reinvention requires abandoning their old life, their old selves, completely. They picture selling the house, changing careers, moving to the coast or buying a campervan. (The campervan seems remarkably popular, although I’ve yet to establish why.)

Sometimes those dramatic changes ARE the right thing to do.

More often, they aren’t.

Reinvention is usually much less visible than that. It begins not with changing your postcode but with changing the story you tell yourself.

I’d prefer to go with reconstruction instead of reinvention.

Repurposing.

For years, perhaps decades, you’ve believed that your value lies in being indispensable at work. Then redundancy arrives and, with it, the unsettling discovery that you are still you, even without the job title.

Or perhaps you’ve always introduced yourself through your role as a parent, only to find that the children have grown up and no longer need you in quite the same way. The silence in the house feels unfamiliar. The kettle whistles in a kitchen that suddenly seems far too large, and you find yourself wondering what on earth you’re supposed to do now.

Nothing about the house has changed overnight.

Your identity has.

It’s tempting at moments like these to look backwards. We remember the person we used to be and imagine that happiness lies in somehow staying the same.

It doesn’t. I know from experience.

One of the unexpected gifts of getting older is that we become less interested in proving ourselves and more interested in understanding ourselves. We begin to realise that a meaningful life isn’t built by collecting achievements like souvenirs from places we’ve visited. It’s built by becoming increasingly aligned with the person we are.

That isn’t starting again.

No need to reinvent yourself. Reconstructing yourself, truer to the real you, will do.

I’ve noticed something similar in the garden. Every winter, the vines near my house look tired, twisted and completely lifeless. If you didn’t know better, you’d assume their best days were behind them.

Then spring arrives.

Almost overnight, tiny green buds appear on the old wood. By early summer the vines are reaching confidently towards the sun, and by autumn they’re heavy with grapes.

The new growth doesn’t appear despite the old vine.

It appears because of it.

Perhaps we expect too much drama from transformation.

We imagine lightning bolts and life-changing revelations when, in reality, change often happens almost unnoticed. One conversation lingers in your thoughts. A walk helps you see something differently. A book gives you language for feelings you couldn’t name till now. A quiet morning with a cup of coffee becomes the moment you finally admit that the life you’ve been living no longer fits the person you are now.

Perhaps that’s why I no longer like the starting over suggestion.

It suggests that everything before this moment has been wasted.

I prefer to think of life as a long conversation between all the people you’ve ever been. The hopeful young adult, the exhausted parent, the ambitious professional, the grieving widow, the enthusiastic beginner, the wiser older self—they all have something to contribute.

None of them needs to be disowned.

Each one has contributed to getting you this far.

So if you’re standing at the edge of a new chapter, don’t ask yourself how to become someone else.

Ask yourself how to become more authentically you.

Because reinvention isn’t about tearing up your story and beginning with a blank page.

It’s about picking up the pen again, with a steadier hand and a much better understanding of what really matters.

That’s not starting again. It’s reconstructing. Repurposing.

It’s writing a chapter that fits better than the last one did.

23 July 202624 July 2026

On Not Earning Your Keep

What a herd of small horses taught me about my worth

There is a particular kind of guilt that only strikes you while doing absolutely nothing, and I would like to report that I have perfected it. Lying in a hammock. Reading a novel at two in the afternoon on a Tuesday. Watching Loki doze in the sun with one back leg cocked like he’s modelling for a statue. And then, some small bureaucrat in my brain starts tapping his clipboard and asks, gently but with real menace: and what, exactly, are you contributing at the moment to life in general and to your life specifically?

I used to think this voice was just mine — a personality quirk, like disliking coriander. It took me an embarrassingly long time, several decades and one very patient miniature horse, to realise it isn’t personal at all. It’s cultural. We’ve all been issued the same clipboard.

The script we didn’t know we’d memorised

What do you do? What have you achieved? What are you doing for your personal growth? We ask these as polite small talk, but they’re a worth assessment in a trench coat. Most of us quietly translated “what do you produce” into “what am I worth,” and then, with a tragic flourish, into “if I stop producing, I stop existing in any way that counts.” I didn’t notice I’d swallowed this whole until I got sick a few years ago and had to properly stop — no retreats, no writing, no relentless five-year-plan for becoming a better version of myself. The panic that arrived wasn’t about my health. It was about my usefulness. Who was I, horizontal on the sofa, contributing nothing to anyone’s spreadsheet?

It took a horse — and not even a particularly philosophical one, just a small, food-motivated Falabella called Zofía — to show me how mad that groundless panic actually was.

Zofía does not have a LinkedIn profile!

Zofía has never justified her existence to a single living soul. She doesn’t compete. She doesn’t breed. By any productivity metric you’d care to apply, she is doing precisely nothing with her one wild and precious little life. And yet watch her in a field for ten minutes and the CV writes itself. She’s fertilising the soil with every dropping, which is more than I can say for my own contribution to local biodiversity this week. She’s spreading seed through that same dropping, feeding the insects that feed the swallows that have decided the herd is a sort of all-day buffet with legs. She’s holding her place in a social order that keeps her daughters calm and oriented without a single memo being issued. None of this is intentional. She isn’t striving for impact. She’s simply being a horse, completely, and the value radiates outward as a side effect of her bothering to exist at all.

We do the same, if we’d only notice. You breathe, and somewhere a plant uses the carbon dioxide you just discarded for free, without filling in a feedback form. You are, at this very moment, a five-star hotel for trillions of microorganisms who never leave a review. Your smile, badly timed but well meant, can lower another person’s heart rate before either of you has said a word. Your friendship has rerouted the entire shape of someone else’s life, and no invoice was ever raised for it. Eventually, your body will feed the earth, which is the least glamorous and the most generous thing any of us ever does, depending on your mood that day. None of this appears on a CV. All of it is real, and most of it was happening long before you’d achieved a single thing worth listing.

The trouble with our measuring tape

I’ll spare you the lecture on capitalism, partly because better minds than mine have written it, and partly because — let’s be honest — I still need the wifi to work and the hay bill to clear. This isn’t an anti-business manifesto. It’s a smaller observation: our measuring tape is superb at counting some things and hopeless at others. We can track revenue to the cent and have no instrument whatsoever for “made someone feel less alone today.” We obsess over growth charts and have never once put a number on what it costs, or what it’s worth, to sit quietly with a frightened friend in a hospital corridor. Comforting the grieving. Raising a child through the long, undocumented hours of toddlerhood. Caring for an ageing parent. Listening without already drafting your reply. Inspiring someone without meaning to. Making a frightened animal feel safe enough to put its head down. These aren’t footnotes to a meaningful life — for most of us, they are the meaningful life, they simply don’t fit the ruler we’ve been handed. Which is rather like declaring the ocean doesn’t exist because your ruler only goes up to thirty centimetres.

Why do so many of us feel we’re “not enough?”

This is the part that gets personal, because I suspect it’s the actual root of my hammock-guilt, and probably yours too. We don’t feel inadequate because we contribute nothing. We feel inadequate because our real contributions are invisible on the only scoreboard we were taught to read. The retiree who built an entire identity around a job title now feels unmoored — not because the wisdom evaporated, but because nobody’s scoring wisdom. The mother three sleepless years into raising small children quietly wonders whether she’s “doing anything” with her life, while doing the one thing civilisation actually depends on. The artist who hasn’t sold a canvas this year starts to doubt whether the painting itself was worth making, as if a thing’s worth were decided retroactively by a stranger’s bank transfer. And — this one’s close to home — horse owners whose ponies will never see a competition ring sometimes apologise for them, as though hay must be earned with a rosette.

It doesn’t. It never did. Zofía has never won so much as a participation ribbon and remains, by every measure that actually matters, magnificent.

What horses are spared from knowing

The single most enviable thing about animals is that they never lie awake at 3 am wondering if they’re falling behind. A horse does not compare its mane to another horse’s mane. It feels no pull whatsoever to optimise its personal brand before the next full moon. It has never once thought I’m not successful enough or I should be doing more with my life, which is either the dumbest or the wisest position available to a living creature, and I increasingly suspect it’s the latter. It simply continues being a horse, with total, unbothered commitment — and that isn’t laziness. It’s a kind of integrity we pay small fortunes on retreats trying to recover.

I’m not proposing we all quit our jobs and take up grazing, tempting as that sounds most Mondays. I’m proposing that this farm has quietly taught me something I keep needing to relearn: existence doesn’t require a defence lawyer. A friendship doesn’t only matter once it’s useful to you. A horse doesn’t only matter once it’s “for” something. And a person — tired, resting, between jobs, recovering, ageing, simply being — doesn’t only matter once they’ve produced something to show for the day. Can we value a being for who it is, rather than for what we can extract from it? That question, once you start asking it about horses, has an inconvenient habit of turning around and asking itself about you.

Strengthening a different muscle

I think of this as training, in the same patient, repetitive way you’d train a young horse — not one grand insight but small, deliberate reps. Noticing someone who isn’t being “productive” and resisting the urge to quietly file them as less interesting. Watching a horse graze and not asking what it’s “for.” Letting yourself rest on a Tuesday without drafting a justification for it in your head. Honouring old age instead of managing it. It’s an odd muscle to build, given the entire surrounding culture is a gym with exactly one machine in it. But — and I say this as someone who is, by nature, allergic to a tidy moral — it does get easier with use.

The thing I actually believe

I believe this most clearly at dusk, standing in a field being thoroughly ignored by five horses who have never once asked what I’m worth. A newborn has value before achieving anything. So does someone with dementia, who has lost the thread of every achievement they ever had. So does the very old, the very tired, the very lost, and the horse who will never wear a rosette. So, on the days when the most ambitious item on your list was exist, do you.

Every time I watch Zofía stand in the sun doing, by any official metric, nothing at all, I’m reminded that my own worth was never something I had to earn in the first place. It came with the breathing and the heartbeat, free of charge, before I’d done a single useful thing. Everything since has just been extra.

Sometimes the most productive thing you can do is wander down a quiet path, breathe deeply, and remember who you were before life convinced you that your value had to be earned.

If that sounds like something your heart has been quietly asking for, I’d love to welcome you to one of my Camino de Santiago walking retreats in southwest France. There are no performance targets, no pressure to transform into a shinier version of yourself, and no expectation that you have it all figured out.

Just good company, beautiful walks, plenty of space to think, and the rare luxury of discovering that you are enough, exactly as you are.

You don’t have to earn your place here. You simply have to decide it’s time to come.

22 July 20268 August 2026

Why No One Notices Silent, Invisible Acts of Immense Courage

When we think of courage, we tend to appreciate dramatic events.

We picture firefighters running into burning buildings. Mountain climbers battling the elements. Athletes pushing through pain. Explorers setting sail towards distant horizons.

Courage, we assume, is loud.

It arrives with fanfare, newspaper headlines and standing ovations.

Yet I suspect the greatest acts of courage are rarely witnessed by anyone at all.

Silent, invisible acts of immense courage.

The woman who gets out of bed the morning after her husband has told her he’s leaving.

The man who walks into a hospital for another round of treatment, smiling kindly at the receptionist because he knows she has probably had a difficult day too.

The widow who cooks dinner for one without falling apart because she set two places by mistake.

The father who admits to his children that he doesn’t have enough money to hold onto the house.

The friend who says, “I’m not all right,” instead of pretending everything is fine.

None of these moments will make the evening news.

They won’t attract medals or applause.

Yet I would argue they require every bit as much courage as climbing a mountain.

Perhaps more.

I’ve often wondered whether we’ve confused courage with confidence.

We imagine brave people as fearless people. We assume they stride purposefully into uncertainty, shoulders back, chin up, absolutely convinced everything will work out in the end.

Life has taught me otherwise.

Most courageous people are shaking in their boots.

They simply decide that fear isn’t going to make today’s decisions for them.

I’ve seen this countless times.

Someone whose life has been turned upside down still manages to put the kettle on because visitors are coming. Another person, exhausted by grief, feeds the dog before they feed themselves. Someone recovering from burnout takes their first tentative walk around the block, feeling slightly ridiculous because yesterday they could run a business, and today walking to the post box feels like a challenge.

It would be easy to dismiss these things as ordinary.

I don’t. Not anymore. I no longer take courage for granted.

When your world has been shaken, ordinary becomes extraordinary. Difficult. Exhausting. Unimaginable.

Making breakfast.

Answering the phone.

Opening the curtains.

Watering the plants.

Laughing at a joke and then feeling guilty because, for a fleeting moment, you’d forgotten your sadness.

These are not small, unimportant incidents.

They’re signs that life, stubbornly hopeful, is quietly raising its head again.

Our culture celebrates dramatic transformations. We admire the before-and-after photographs, the triumphant comeback stories and the overnight successes that almost always turn out to have taken fifteen years.

We rarely celebrate the slow work.

The months when nobody notices your progress.

The hundred tiny decisions to keep going when giving up would have felt much easier.

And yet, isn’t that where real courage lives?

In extraordinary moments, but also in ordinary ones that need repeating, over and over again.

I’ve always loved watching trees after a storm.

A violent wind can strip away branches, scatter leaves across the ground and leave the garden looking rather sorry for itself. At first glance, everything appears damaged or even destroyed.

Then, almost imperceptibly, life begins again.

New shoots emerge.

The tree never hurries the process.

It simply begins again, one small leaf at a time.

Perhaps we’re not so different.

After a big life change, a crisis or a huge challenge, we often expect ourselves to bounce back quickly, as though resilience were something we could summon by sheer force of will. We become impatient with our slow progress because it doesn’t look impressive enough.

But progress is a process.

One quiet conversation.

One gentle walk.

One good night’s sleep.

One unexpected laugh.

If you’re living through a difficult season, don’t underestimate those seemingly insignificant moments.

They may seem too small to matter.

They aren’t.

That is how you rebuild your life.

And while nobody else may applaud them, I hope you’ll allow yourself to recognise them for what they truly are.

Not signs that you’re merely getting through another day.

Signs that, quietly and courageously, you’re finding your way back to the light.

21 July 20268 August 2026

Anticipating the Start of a Retreat: Worries Rarely Spoken Aloud

Lessons I Learned as a Retreat Guest

When I think back to the retreats I’ve attended over the years, I remember the beautiful walks, the interesting conversations or the moments of quiet that somehow made the world feel a little less complicated.

But what I remember most vividly is how I felt before I arrived.

I remember opening an email that immediately made me feel at ease. It answered questions I hadn’t yet thought to ask. It reassured me without being patronising. It gave me the comforting sense that someone had already thought about my journey before I’d packed my suitcase.

I also remember the opposite.

The uncertainty of wondering whether I’d brought the right clothes. Whether I got the meeting point right. Whether I’ll get lost. Whether I’d somehow be the odd one out.

It’s remarkable how much emotional luggage we carry alongside the physical kind.

Few of us arrive at a retreat in a neutral state. We arrive after weeks—or months—of juggling responsibilities, making difficult decisions, looking after other people and trying to keep too many plates spinning. Even planning something that’s supposed to be restorative can become another item on an already overcrowded to-do list.

Then there are the quieter worries that rarely get spoken aloud.

Will I fit in?

Am I fit enough?

What if I don’t get on with the other guests?

Will it be worth the money?

Those questions are perfectly ordinary. In fact, I’d be surprised if they didn’t cross most people’s minds at least once.

Attending a retreat means stepping into the unknown. Even if it’s something you’ve looked forward to for months, there is still a small leap of faith involved. You’re leaving behind familiar routines and placing yourself in the hands of someone you’ve probably never met.

That trust deserves to be honoured long before the retreat itself begins.

It’s one of the reasons I now think of a retreat as starting the moment someone presses the “Book Now” button.

From that point onwards, every interaction matters. Every email, every message, every answer to a seemingly insignificant question becomes part of the experience.

Over the years, I’ve learned that a measured amount of information can be surprisingly comforting. Not pages and pages of instructions, but the sort of practical details that quietly remove unnecessary worry.

Where exactly do I park?

What happens if my train is delayed?

Do I really need walking poles?

Will there be time to read my book?

None of these questions is really about logistics.

They’re about reassurance.

They ask, in different ways, Will I be looked after?

Hospitality begins long before someone crosses your doorstep.

For me, it begins with making people feel expected rather than processed. Welcomed rather than managed.

That’s why I enjoy sending detailed information before guests arrive—not because I want to overwhelm them with instructions, but because I’d like them to stop thinking about practicalities altogether. The fewer decisions they have to make when they get here, the sooner their shoulders relax.

Perhaps that’s why I’ve become rather fond of what I think of as the “in-between” days. The days after someone books but before they set off are full of quiet anticipation. A retreat has a curious way of slipping into your thoughts long before your suitcase appears on the bed. You find yourself wondering which walking shoes to bring, choosing a book you’ve been saving for just the right occasion, imagining long brunches under blue skies or peaceful mornings with nothing more urgent than birdsong. Little by little, almost without noticing, your mind begins to loosen its desperate grip on everyday life. The retreat has already started its gentle work.

And that, I think, is one of the loveliest discoveries I’ve made as both a retreat guest and a retreat host. We often imagine that transformation begins with a grand moment—the first meditation, the first walk, the first meaningful conversation. More often, it begins quietly. It begins when someone feels expected rather than merely accommodated. When they know they’ll be welcomed by name. When they sense that, for a few precious days, they won’t have to organise, perform, solve problems or hold everything together. Sometimes the first gift a retreat offers isn’t insight at all. It’s reassurance. And once you’ve experienced that feeling yourself, it’s impossible not to want to offer it to others.

Anticipating the start of the retreat is an essential part of the retreat.

Receiving a friendly message a week beforehand, imagining the countryside, wondering which book to pack, looking forward to uninterrupted walks along the Camino de Santiago or quiet mornings with birdsong instead of traffic—these moments are not separate from the retreat. They are the opening chapter.

By the time guests arrive at my little farmhouse in Gascony, I hope they already feel they’ve begun to leave everyday life behind.

Sometimes, that journey starts with nothing more complicated than an email that says, “I’m looking forward to welcoming you here!”

20 July 20269 July 2026

I’ve Made a Mess of My Life

One of the saddest sentences I hear, way too often, is:

“I think I’ve made a mess of my life.”

It’s rarely said for dramatic effect. More often, it arrives quietly over a cup of coffee that’s gone cold, while someone stares out of the window as though the answer might be hiding in the neighbour’s garden. Sometimes the story involves redundancy, divorce or retirement. Sometimes the children have all left home. Sometimes there’s no obvious crisis at all.

On paper, everything still looks perfectly respectable. The career is intact. The relationship survives. The mortgage gets paid. Friends describe them as “doing well”. Yet beneath the surface, there’s an uncomfortable feeling that’s surprisingly difficult to put into words.

“This life doesn’t feel like mine anymore.”

I don’t think that’s the same as having made a mess of one’s life.

I think it’s more like wearing a beautifully tailored jacket that fit perfectly ten years ago. You can still button it up. Technically, it still does the job. But you can’t move freely. You tug at the sleeves, roll your shoulders and find yourself longing to take it off.

The jacket hasn’t shrunk. It’s exactly the same as it always has been.

You’re not.

I wonder how many of us spend years trying to squeeze ourselves back into lives we’ve outgrown. We tell ourselves to be grateful, to stop complaining and to keep going because, after all, this is the life we worked so hard to own. Which makes it all the more confusing when it no longer fits.

The strange thing is that nothing has to be obviously wrong. A life can become too small without falling apart. There are no flashing warning lights and no dramatic collapse. Instead, there’s a quiet accumulation of uncomfortable moments. Every Monday morning feels a little bluer than the last. Conversations become annoyingly repetitive. This year’s New Year’s resolutions sound suspiciously like last year’s.

It’s rather like listening to your favourite song every single day for twenty years. Eventually, even the chorus loses its magic. Not because it was a bad song, but because you’ve changed since the first time you heard it.

Somewhere along the way, we’ve absorbed the curious idea that adulthood is about making one set of decisions and then sticking to them for the rest of our lives. Choose your career. Choose your partner. Choose where to live. Then carry on, preferably without ever changing your mind or causing anyone unnecessary inconvenience.

Real life, however, has always been much less predictable than that.

We grow. We lose people we love. We discover new interests. Our priorities shift. The ambitions that once propelled us out of bed each morning quietly lose their grip, while other dreams, long forgotten, start tapping us gently on the shoulder.

I’ve noticed that many people interpret this restlessness as having made a mistake, somewhere along the line.

I see it differently.

Trees don’t cling desperately to last year’s leaves. Rivers carve new paths. Vineyards that looked lifeless in January are heavy with fruit by early autumn.

Nature never confuses change with making mistakes.

We do it all the time.

Perhaps that’s because changing direction can feel like having to admit we were wrong. It can seem as though we’re betraying the younger version of ourselves who worked so hard to build this life.

I don’t believe that.

I think the person you were deserves your gratitude, your respect, your understanding – not your lifelong obeisance.

That person made the best decisions they could with the knowledge, responsibilities and resources they had at the time.

But you were never meant to become a prisoner of your past.

One of the unexpected gifts of growing older is that we begin to realise life isn’t a monument to preserve. It’s a garden to cultivate.

Gardens are always changing, always growing. They need pruning. They need weeding. Occasionally, something that once flourished has to be moved because it no longer thrives where it was first planted. Anyone who has ever gardened knows there is little point in scolding a rose because it has outgrown its spot.

You move it. Or you give it more room.

Perhaps we owe ourselves the same kindness.

So, if you’ve been carrying around the uneasy feeling that your life no longer fits, resist the temptation to look for mistakes you might have made. Instead, become curious.

What if that feeling isn’t telling you that your life is a mess?

What if it’s simply telling you that you’ve outgrown your old life?

Perhaps the goal isn’t to return to the life that once fit so comfortably.

Perhaps it’s to cultivate one that fits you now.

To me, that sounds less like starting over and more like coming home.