A guide for the quietly exhausted person who has been “fine” for far too long
What this is: A thoughtful, research-informed guide to journaling in natural settings as a practical tool for nervous system regulation, emotional honesty, and self-reconnection during or after major life upheaval. It includes a storytelling section, science, common mistakes, book recommendations, and a gentle invitation to go further.
What this isn’t: Another “buy a cute notebook and light a candle” productivity post. This isn’t about aesthetic journalling for Instagram, morning pages for writers, or gratitude lists for the mildly stressed. It’s for people who have been through something real and need something real in return.
Read this if: You’ve been so busy being strong, helpful, and “fine” that you’ve lost track of what you actually feel. You’re emerging from divorce, illness, bereavement, burnout, or any other life earthquake, and you’re ready, cautiously, to start the next chapter. You suspect that your nervous system has been running the show, and you’d like your actual self back, please.
5 Key Takeaways
- Your nervous system is not broken. Hypervigilance, people-pleasing, and emotional shutdown are intelligent adaptations, not character flaws. But they stop working for you once the crisis is over.
- Nature provides co-regulation without conditions. Trees, birds, water, and wind offer the nervous system a sense of safety that doesn’t come with strings attached.
- Combining movement with writing is neurologically powerful. Walking before or during journalling shifts the brain out of threat-mode and into a state where honest self-expression becomes possible.
- External validation is a temporary fix. True, lasting safety must eventually be sourced from within. Nature journaling is one of the most accessible ways to begin building that internal anchor.
- You don’t need to be a “journaller.” If you can write a text message or a shopping list, you can do this. No talent required. Just you, a page, and somewhere green.
Introduction: The Problem With Being Fine
Journaling in Nature: The Art of Finding Your Way Back to Yourself
There’s a particular kind of exhaustion that comes from having managed everything “effortlessly.”
You held it together through the diagnosis, the solicitors’ letters, the funeral, the redundancy, the children who needed you. You were competent and composed and, if anyone asked, “fine.” And now, now that it’s “over,” you find yourself sitting in a life that technically looks okay from the outside, feeling completely lost inside it.
Your body is tense in ways that don’t seem to have a reason anymore. You agree to things you don’t want to do. You say you’re coping a dozen times a day. You’ve almost forgotten what you actually want, what you actually feel, what you actually think when nobody needs anything from you.
You’re not broken. But something important went quiet during the crisis, and it hasn’t come back yet.
This article is about one surprisingly powerful way to bring it home.
Specifically, it’s about what happens when you take a journal outside, into nature, and let the trees, the sky, the sound of water, and a little honest writing begin to do what therapy, productivity, and sheer willpower have not quite managed: help you feel safe enough, in your own body, to tell yourself the truth again.
By the time you’ve read this, you’ll understand why nature specifically matters, how the nervous system responds to green spaces, and how to use simple written prompts outdoors to begin rebuilding the most important relationship in your life: the one with yourself.
Elize’s Story: The Woman Who Froze in the Middle of the Path
How One Afternoon in a French Forest Changed Everything Elise Thought She Knew About Herself
Elise Marchetti had not cried in fourteen months.
She had noted this fact the way you note a minor administrative curiosity, like discovering your passport expired. Mildly interesting. Probably worth addressing at some point.
She was fifty-three, a former head teacher, recently divorced after twenty-two years of marriage, and the proud owner of what she privately called “functional emotional shutdown.” She slept well. She ate sensibly. She went to the gym. She had, by any reasonable metric, handled it beautifully.
So beautifully, in fact, that her friends had stopped asking if she was okay. She seemed more than okay. She seemed sorted. This was, she understood somewhere beneath the sorted, a little bit terrifying.
She had come to the retreat in southwest France because her GP, a quietly perceptive woman, had circled something in a brochure and said, “I think this might be more useful than another round of CBT.” The words on the page had been, “For people who are ready for the next chapter but aren’t sure where to start.” Elise had folded the brochure into her bag and not looked at it again for three weeks. Then, one night at 3 am, she had booked it.
On the second morning, the group was given journals and sent outside alone for an hour.
“Write whatever comes,” they were told. “Or write nothing. But go outside. Walk first.”
Elise walked. The path wound through oak trees heavy with late summer green, and the air smelled of pine resin and, faintly, of rain that hadn’t arrived yet. Underfoot, the ground was soft and slightly uneven, the kind of walking that requires just enough attention to keep you out of your own head without demanding your full attention.
She had expected to list goals. She had brought a list of questions she thought she ought to answer. What do I want my life to look like? What are my values? What am I grateful for?
She sat on a low stone wall, opened the journal, and wrote nothing for seven minutes.
Then a chaffinch landed about two feet from her foot, looked at her with the complete indifference only birds and toddlers can convincingly pull off, and hopped away.
She wrote: I am so tired.
And then, for the first time in fourteen months, she cried.
Not dramatically. Not in a way that would have looked interesting in a film. Just quietly, steadily.
She kept writing. Not about goals. Not about what she wanted her life to look like. About the marriage, yes, but more about the years before it ended, when she had known it was going wrong and said nothing. Said less than nothing, actually. Had become so extraordinarily good at not rocking the boat that she’d essentially handed over the navigation and then wondered why she didn’t know where she was.
She wrote about how she’d learned to read her husband’s face before she said anything. About the tiny automatic calculations she performed at every dinner table: is this a good moment? Is he in the mood to talk? Will this land badly? About how she’d done the same thing at school with difficult parents, and with her own father before that.
She wrote: I have been trying to be safe by making everyone else comfortable. It has not, it turns out, made me feel very safe at all.
The chaffinch came back. She chose to interpret this as encouragement.
By the time she walked back up the path to the farmhouse, she hadn’t solved anything. Her life was still exactly as she had left it an hour ago. The divorce was still final. Her children were still grown and living in different cities. She was still, technically, in the middle of a field in France with three strangers and a journal.
But something had shifted. Some tiny, essential gear had clicked back into place.
She felt, for the first time in longer than she could pinpoint, like herself. Not the sorted, functional, managing version of herself. The actual one. The one who was tired and sad and also, it turned out, quietly furious, and also, underneath all of that, still curious about what came next.
She had not cried in fourteen months. She cried twice more that week.
Both times, she felt better afterwards.
Why Does This Actually Work? The Deeper Picture
What’s really happening when we take our pain outside?
Elise’s experience wasn’t magic, though it felt a little like it. It was neuroscience, meeting ancient wisdom, meeting an honest page.
When we go through major life upheaval, especially the kind that involves broken trust, loss, or chronic uncertainty, our nervous systems do exactly what they’re designed to do: they go on high alert. The amygdala flags danger. Cortisol floods the system. The body tightens, the breath shortens, and the brain begins prioritising survival over self-awareness.
This is what kept our ancestors alive.
The problem is that many of us stay in this state long after the immediate crisis has passed. And in that hypervigilant state, we prioritise attachment over authenticity. We fight or flee, freeze, or people-please our way through days, minimising our own needs, softening our own boundaries, rationalising away emotions that feel too big or too risky to express.
This is not a weakness. It is an extremely sophisticated, deeply ingrained strategy for staying safe in a world where connection has felt unreliable.
But it has a cost.
The cost is the slow erosion of self-trust. When we consistently override our own inner signals to manage other people’s comfort, we stop hearing those signals clearly. We lose the thread back to our own knowing. We become, functionally, strangers to ourselves.
Nature offers something different.
Research consistently shows that time in natural environments activates the parasympathetic nervous system, what we might call the “rest and digest” state, and quietens the amygdala’s threat-scanning activity. Specifically, studies have found that even twenty minutes in a natural setting measurably reduces cortisol levels and shifts brain activity away from the default mode network’s ruminative loop.
In other words, nature physiologically creates the conditions in which honesty becomes possible.
And writing in that state is different from writing from your kitchen table, where the dishes are visible and the inbox is beeping and the ambient pressure of ordinary life keeps your nervous system just brisk enough to stay managed.
Outdoors, with the sensory input of birdsong, breeze, the smell of earth, and the spatial expansiveness of sky, the body begins to release its guard. And in that release, what has been suppressed, named, unnamed, pushed down, rationalised away, begins to surface.
Not dramatically. Gently. The way it did for Elise.
How this ripples outward
Here is what is rarely discussed about this kind of inner work: it doesn’t stay inner.
When a person begins to reconnect with their authentic self, to rebuild the capacity to know what they feel, say what they mean, and tolerate uncertainty without immediately seeking external reassurance, they change the quality of every relationship around them.
Not because they become easier to live with. Sometimes the opposite, at least initially. But because they become real. And real people invite realness in return.
Elise, six months after her retreat, told her daughter something she had never told her before: that she had stayed in her marriage too long because she was afraid of being alone, and that she wanted her daughter to know that fear was not wisdom, and she hoped she would not repeat her mother’s mistake.
The conversation they hadn’t been able to have for years, they had. Because one woman sat on a wall in a French forest and wrote four honest words in a journal.
Communities change one honest conversation at a time. One person who stops performing fine and starts being real, at a time.
5 Mistakes to Avoid When Journalling in Nature
1. Going with an agenda. The temptation to bring a list of “journalling prompts you should answer” is understandable, but it can keep you in problem-solving mode rather than discovery mode. One open question is better than ten structured ones. Try: What am I not saying? or What does my body know that my mind is avoiding?
2. Choosing convenience over nature. Sitting in your backyard with the neighbour’s lawnmower audible is not the same as a quiet forest path. You don’t need to travel to the Pyrenees (though it helps). But genuinely seek out an environment where the sensory input is predominantly natural. Your nervous system knows the difference.
3. Writing to an imaginary audience. This is the sneaky one. We write as if someone will read it, and so we write the version of ourselves we can defend. Notice if your entries sound like a reasonable person explaining their reasonable feelings. Then try again, without the imaginary audience.
4. Stopping when it gets uncomfortable. The moment you want to close the journal and check your phone is usually the moment something real is about to arrive. You don’t have to go further than feels safe. But pause, breathe, look up at the sky or the water, and give it thirty more seconds before you decide.
5. Doing it once and deciding it didn’t work. A single session may crack something open (it did for Elise). Or it may feel awkward and unproductive. Either is fine. This is a practice, not a procedure. Give it a week before you evaluate. Your nervous system has been in protective mode for months or years. It doesn’t fully exhale in one afternoon.
A Short Intention-Setting Exercise: Before You Write
This takes five minutes. Do it standing outside, before you open your journal.
- Place both feet flat on the ground. Feel the earth or grass or stone beneath you. Really feel it.
- Take three slow breaths. In through the nose, out through the mouth. Let the exhale be longer than the inhale.
- Look up. At sky, at treetops, at whatever is above you. Let your gaze soften.
- Say, quietly or to yourself: “I am not here to perform or to fix or to explain. I am here to listen to myself.”
- Open your journal to a blank page. Write the date, and then write the first true thing that comes, however small.
That’s it. That’s the whole exercise.
Further Reading
What should you read alongside your journal?
1. The Body Keeps the Score by Bessel van der Kolk A foundational text for understanding how trauma and chronic stress are stored not just in the mind but in the body. Van der Kolk’s research explains, in clear and human terms, why cognitive insight alone is often not enough, and why embodied practices (including movement and time in nature) are essential for healing. Essential for anyone who has found that “just thinking about it differently” hasn’t quite worked.
2. Last Child in the Woods by Richard Louv Though ostensibly about children and nature-deficit disorder, Louv’s landmark work contains profound insight into what disconnection from natural environments costs us at any age, and why re-establishing that connection is urgent rather than optional. Quietly radical.
3. The Wild Edge of Sorrow by Francis Weller A beautifully written exploration of grief and the gates we must pass through to process loss fully. Weller draws on indigenous wisdom, Jungian psychology, and poetic depth to argue that grief is not a problem to solve but a passage to honour. Particularly relevant if you are navigating loss of any kind, including the loss of a life you expected to have.
4. Writing to Heal by James W. Pennebaker Pennebaker is the psychologist whose decades of research established, empirically, that expressive writing has measurable physical and psychological health benefits. This book is practical, evidence-based, and unintimidating. It answers the question “but does journalling actually work?” with a resounding and well-cited yes.
5. Pilgrim at Tinker Creek by Annie Dillard Not a self-help book. Better than that. Dillard’s Pulitzer-winning account of a year spent observing nature in Virginia’s Blue Ridge Mountains is a masterclass in the art of deep noticing, and deep noticing is exactly what nature journalling, at its finest, asks of us. Read this and you will never walk past a river the same way again.
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Going Deeper: The Purpose Pivot Protocol
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5 FAQs: What You Need To Know
Honest answers to the questions you might feel slightly embarrassed to ask
Q: I’m not a “writer.” Will journalling in nature still work for me? Yes. Journalling as a healing practice has nothing to do with writing ability. You’re not being assessed. No one will read it. If you can write “I don’t know where to begin,” you have, in fact, begun. The nervous system doesn’t care about your vocabulary. It responds to honesty.
Q: How long do I need to be outside for this to make a difference? Research suggests that even twenty to thirty minutes in a natural environment produces measurable physiological changes. That said, the quality of your presence matters more than the clock. Half an hour of genuine attention, feet on the ground, eyes off the screen, is worth more than two hours of distracted nature-adjacent sitting.
Q: What if I start writing and can’t stop, or it gets too overwhelming? This is a real possibility, and it’s worth knowing in advance: you are in charge of the pace. If something difficult surfaces, you can write “I need to stop here” and stop. You can look up. You can breathe. You can walk. Nature journalling is not an excavation exercise designed to unearth everything at once. It’s a conversation with yourself, and like any good conversation, you can change the subject when you need to.
Q: My life is genuinely chaotic right now. Is this the right time? Possibly the best time. When everything external is in flux, developing an internal anchor, a practice that helps you hear your own signal through all the noise, is particularly valuable. You don’t need calm circumstances to begin. You need five minutes, somewhere green, and a pen.
Q: How is this different from just going for a walk? A walk is wonderful. A walk is also relatively easy to do while staying completely inside your own head, replaying conversations, planning ahead, managing mentally. Writing interrupts that loop. It asks you to slow down, to translate experience into language, and that translation process is where self-awareness lives. The combination of physical movement and written reflection is distinctly more powerful than either alone.
Conclusion
You did what you needed to do to get through. You managed. You adapted. You sourced your safety from wherever you could find it, from being indispensable, from being agreeable, from making sure no one around you felt uncomfortable, and it worked, after a fashion, for as long as it needed to.
But you’re here now. Past the acute crisis. Standing at the edge of something new, and wondering, perhaps, why you don’t feel relieved.
The safety you were looking for was never out there to begin with. Not really. It was always supposed to live in here, in your own body, your own knowing, your own capacity to trust your own experience. Life interrupted that capacity. Now is when you begin to rebuild it.
“The next chapter doesn’t begin when everything finally feels safe. It begins the moment you decide that your own truth is worth more than everyone else’s comfort.” , Dr Margaretha Montagu
A Gentle Invitation: An Esprit Meraki Camino de Santiago Retreat
Perhaps you’re ready for something more than an afternoon in the park.
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This retreat is not a walking holiday with some workshops attached. It’s a structured, supported, carefully held space. People like Elise. People like you. You’ll walk, write, reflect, and reconnect, with yourself, with others, and with the quiet inner knowing that’s been waiting patiently underneath all the “fine.”

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And Finally: A Question Worth Sitting With
What is one thing your body has been trying to tell you that your mind has been very politely ignoring?

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Author Bio: Dr Margaretha Montagu – described as a “game changer”, “gifted healer”, “guiding light” and “life-enriching author” – is an experienced medical doctor, a certified NLP practitioner, a medical hypnotherapist, an equine-assisted psychotherapist (EAGALAcertified) and a transformational retreat leader who guides her clients through life transitions – virtually, or with the assistance of her Friesian and Falabella horses, at their home in the southwest of France.
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